emoing

i reli dunnoe what is happening in my life..everything seems so messy n confusing.
i always thought that everyone is wearing a mask to hide their trueself,but now i found out that it is i that is wearing a mask.i'm wearing it not because it is nice,it is because i want to protect myself,maybe i'm just overprotective over myself.
i don't really trust anyone anymore(except my good friends n my family)since the breakup with my ex.i trusted him n her,but they just hurt me deeply without feeling guilty.
i'm terrified that this thing will happen to me again.
i noe the process of finding true love is hard, but if that means that i have to go through hardships just to find happiness,i guess i dun have the courage to deal with all the heart break.
i can't figure out who the hell am i, what do i want and what do i need..
eveyday is juz the same, nothing special happen.everyday is just repeating.i'm so sick of this life.
i'm kinda lost.i dunnoe what is the point of me living in this world(dun worry,i'm not going to kill myself)
maybe some of u are wondering why am i complaining?i should be contented with my life.
but if everyone is contented with their life,will we ever work hard to achieve some thing we want?
most of the people around have their ambition,have their future plans,and here i am, lost in a world of my own..